Dilemma

Last week I was all content with my wedding planning and how far it has progressed. Things were smooth and I was feeling good.

But, the ugly green monster (jealousy) popped onto my back and bit me hard.

Tim was telling me that Laurie, his co-worker, was talking about looking for a wedding/reception location. They were looking at someplace on Bainbridge Island. Tim told her about Thornewood Castle and she was very impressed.

The minute he wrote that, I felt like I got kicked in the stomach. I couldn't believe that he had told her about it when he hadn't even wanted to consider it for us. I know that is a stupid thing, but it was bothering me. I was instantly jealous and hoping that they didn't select it. Then the regrets settled in and I was sad at the thought of not getting the "dream" wedding that I had been thinking about.

Later on that day, I talked with my mom and told her how silly I felt for feeling that way. She told me that she understood, and was asking what the price differential was on Thornewood vs. Slovenian. I told her that it was $1800. She said that she would pay the difference, if Tim agreed to do it at Thornewood. She wouldn't give us extra otherwise, but she totally wanted me to have the wedding of my dreams and felt bad that I was compromising all over the place. She wanted to try and make it happen since she never had the dream wedding.

So I told Tim. But he didn't seem all that excited. I don't know. It is weird. All he said was, "that would take care of the budget." I told him that he would need to think about it and let me know what he thought. He was silent. Later on that evening, he brought up the Bartelson's and what they would think of Thornewood. So I don't know what that meant. The next night he said something about Thornewood. I asked him if he was willing to go and look at it. He said he would.

I called them on Thursday afternoon to see about getting an appointment, but I could only leave a message and I haven't heard back from them. Hopefully we can go out there at some point this week or on the weekend.

Isn't mom great?